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Have you ever... felt pain...?
Have you ever... just want to let go...?
Have you ever... just don't want to deal with anything anymore...?
Have you ever... thought about death...?
Have you ever... been surrounded by so much darkness that you were never able to see the light again...?
Have you ever... felt so lonely...?
Have you ever... just wish things were different...?

Haha you could probably guess all of my answers to these questions if you know me that well. Things are pretty much the same; nothing is ever different.

I see the same faces everyday. I hear the same words over and over again. I feel like... I'm stuck... in a world's that like... a broken record....

I feel pain everyday.... I feel loneliness.... I feel the darkness eating my soul....

I try to think back... to some good times... but, I can never remember them.... I can't really say that I have any good memories.... I only remember the bad.... My parents... yelling at me... insulting me... a-... abusing me.... Treating me like... a servant... with no feelings....

I'm... only... no. I'm not really allow to be seen or heard.... My parents... they're sad... because of me.... They're angry... because of me.... To them... I'm a mistake....

Have you ever... been told that you were too young to understand anything when in reality, you already understand it...?

People say... the darkness isn't real.... People say... that you can never understand this "darkness".... I, for one, perfectly understand it.... Why...? It's always been in my heart.... It's eating away at my soul....

Why... can't anyone understand... how weak I am...? Why can't they... understand... anything I'm going though...? Why... can't they see... I don't really want any attention for this...? Why...?

Hangny